Truth is, I've been thinking about blogging. Thinking a lot. Coming up with great ideas. Pondering life and starting a great blog about 478392098374 times in the past month or so. But have I clicked over and actually started typing? Nope. And I have a few reasons/ideas/excuses why:
- I'm a lazy journal-er
- I'm just lazy
- I feel like I have to post a huge update and I'm just not up for that
- I have this all-or-nothing 'thing' that hounds me, and I feel like if I'm not posting a daily/weekly recap, it's not even worth it
- I've been fighting depression. I am challenged with depression on occasion, especially seasonal depression which starts in the fall (my old therapist said I'm a summer girl and my brain mourns the loss of sunshine and outdoor activities). Exercise is my natural antidepressant, but if you've struggled with depression you know that exercise is something you have to force yourself to keep up when you're feeling blue
- My nails are really long right now and it feels funny to type
- I don't really want to let my brain run free, that's dangerous
- I want to blog about my cat getting out and lost but it's pretty emotional for me
- I'm heavier than I want to be and I feel like if I'm not job hunting, I should be working out
- I don't want to face my emotions
- I have too much to say and it will take forever
- It's much more important to get to the next level on Candy Crush
- I like reading other blogs more
- I have a pile of cards and thank-yous that I haven't written out yet
- Cooking creates tangible results so I like it more
- I still don't have a job
- I post a lot of updates and other stuff on Facebook
- I think that I should be spending every minute of my day hunting for a job, and even though that doesn't happen, I feel like if I'm blogging it's time I could be job hunting
- I feel poopy about not having a job yet and I'm frustrated and don't want to let that negativity onto our blog
- Football season is back and I'm obsessed and I can't wait to see my Houston Texans play the San Diego Chargers tonight
- I prefer taking photos of Rufus doing silly stuff or watching him run around the apartment and slide on the wood floors
- I feel like there's an entire city out there that I'm missing out on and that I need to explore more of
- I really need a job but I am having a hard time deciding what direction to go in
- I've made blogging a chore rather than an outlet for my emotions and thoughts or a record of our adventures
- I think too much
- I get digital overload - between Facebook, Instagram, Foursquare, Match, Meetup, Snapchat, fantasy football, emails, etc., sometimes it gets to be too much
- Analysis paralysis
- I can't figure out why one carton of eggs would have three double-yolk eggs. It both intrigues and worries me...
As you can see, I'm stuck in my head in so many ways. But while I need to continue my job hunt, I also need to nourish my body and soul as well. So as a part of my daily routine, I'm going to go for a walk around Prospect Park, or my neighborhood, Prospect Heights / Park Slope, then I'm going to blog, and then I'm going to job search - make calls, submit resumes, follow up on applications, go on interviews, etc.
I'm a planner to the Nth degree, I love lists, and I know that I need a simple plan so I will stick to it and get my life to where I really want to be. So... that being said, here's what I will be focusing on:
MIND
- Keep reading new books, they give me a digital-free escape into my imagination and inspire me
- Blog! Get those emotions and thoughts and experiences out there to share and celebrate
- Hug my sister at least once a day. I love hugs, I love physical affection, I love my sister, and hugs are good for you!
BODY
- Daily walk through Prospect Park or the neighborhood, but I'm not going to beat myself up if I miss a day, I'll just make sure I get back on it the next day!
- Spin class/yoga class/other classes at our gym, Crunch Fitness
- Eat healthy, whole foods, home cooked mostly. Lean protein, healthy veggies, whole grains, delicious spices and creative sweet treats
- Watch alcohol consumption - aim for only one day a week if that. I enjoy a tasty beer, a delicious wine, or a yummy cocktail, but alcohol is rough on my pocketbook, my calorie count, and my mental health. It's a depressant and I don't need any help with that - especially as fall turns toward winter
- Ensure proper nutrition - take my vitamins, and add in some amino acids that help me fight depression, GABA and 5-HTP. (I know Wikipedia isn't the best resource, but bear with me on my GTS skills. Here's a couple more links to the great Dr. Oz's website about GABA and 5-HTP).
SOUL
- Keep going to church when I can, Megan's friend Erica introduced us to Hillsong NYC and it's a great place that speaks to me
- Set up Skype dates with my best friends, I miss them. A lot. Text or email me if you want my username
- Read the daily devotional that my sweet Mom sent me in the mail (she sent Meg one too, of course). It can't take that much time, and I know I need it
CAREER
- Continue my routine and job search as a job during the week
- Get a few versions of my resume in order
- Financial jobs
- Foodie jobs
- Office manager type jobs
- Be persistent and have positive energy
- Network with every new friend I meet along the way
So - expect more from me. I'll be working on blogging more often, even if it's just a blurb here or there. And Megan will still be blogging too.
Oh, and it's nice to see you again!
XOXO - Kelly
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